Faking Faith by Josie Bloss

Author:Josie Bloss
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: teen fiction, teen, young adult, sexting, relationships, angst, fiction, Romance, Religion, teenager, Christianity, drama
Publisher: Llewellyn Worldwide, LTD.
Published: 2011-09-25T21:00:00+00:00

SIXTEEN

Later that night, after the guests were gone and everyone

was in bed, I could hear Abigail quietly catching her breath. It sounded like she was trying to stop crying.

“Abigail?” I finally whispered, looking across the darkened room at her.

“Faith, you’re still awake?” she replied, sniffling.

“Yeah … are you okay?”

“Oh, it’s silly,” she said.

“What’s silly?”

There was a long pause.

“Do you know if … do your parents have anyone picked out for you?” she asked. “I mean, I know you’re not supposed to think of those things until God sends you your true love and you enter a courtship, but lots of girls have an inkling ahead of time, especially if he’s someone from your church.”

“Right … ” I said.

“So, do you?”

I stared up at the dark ceiling, totally confused about how to handle this situation.

“Um … I don’t think so. Or at least they haven’t mentioned anyone. I guess they might want me to find someone on my own.”

She propped herself up on her elbow and looked over at me. The glow from the barn light caught her eyes and they glittered.

“Really? But isn’t that kind of risky?”

“Risky?” I repeated.

“Well, how could you be sure that you’re marrying a good man? And how can you guard your heart while you’re looking for him? If they just send you off into the world to find your own way, how will you be protected? What if you fall in love with the wrong person?”

Those were actually all perfectly valid questions. Beyond giving me a place to live and food to eat and money to buy stuff and the occasional lecture, at this point my parents basically did jack shit to make sure I was protected or that I didn’t fall in love with the wrong person. Of course, that meant they also gave me the freedom to more or less do whatever I wanted.

It was kind of a trade-off.

“I don’t know. They’re hoping that I can deal with it all by myself, I guess,” I said.

“Oh,” said Abigail, lying back down on her side, hands folded to the side of her cheek. “That must be scary.”

I thought about Blake and his face as he shoved me away from his car. “Yeah, I guess it is.”

We were both silent for a moment.

“Faith?” she said, just as I began to assume she’d fallen asleep.

“Hmm?”

“What did you think of Beau? I mean, honestly. Don’t fib.”

I silently twisted the blanket in my hands.

“He … seems nice. It’s nice that he’s, you know, already kind of part of your family,” I said, stretching for good things to say. Because what else could I tell her? If I admitted how gross and suspicious I found him, it would just make her feel bad. And I knew how much she wanted a happily ever after.

“You think so?”

“Sure,” I replied. “But really, the important thing is what you think of him and how he makes you feel.”

She was silent.

“Abigail?”

“He’s a fine man,” she said firmly.

“Yeah, you’ve said that already. What else?”

She sighed softly.

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